A few days ago I wrote a post called The Glimpse, where I talked about getting a peek at something I’ve always wanted and wondering if maybe that glimpse was the beginning of a shift.
Well…last night I woke up at 3 a.m.
I thought I would turn on a YouTube video and drift back to sleep, but I think GUS had other plans.
As I listened to the soothing voice, a thought raced through my mind. It moved so quickly I almost missed it. But something about it felt important enough that I chased it down before it disappeared.
And once I caught it…I knew.
So I got up and started journaling because I didn’t want to lose what I was feeling.
And there it was.
The shift.
The kind of shift that doesn’t come along very often.
The kind where you know that you know.
The kind where there is no turning back.
It’s still in its infancy.
Right now I need to protect it and nurture it.
It may take time before anything on the outside changes.
I may wobble here and there, and I expect that.
But something inside me has already changed.
All my life I’ve lived as though I was driving with the parking brake on.
And somewhere in the middle of the night…
the brake was released.
I feel a sense of relief.
Subtle…
yet certain.
~ Suzi