It’s 9:09 pm. I’m ready to close out this day. Writing this blog post is the last thing on my list of promises. I’ve been sitting here searching for something profound to say and the ideas are not flowing. I am trying too hard. Trying too hard doesn’t work. I know that. So here I am giving myself a break. I’m choosing to ease up on myself and just say what is on my mind.
I feel like I’m living in the hallway. It’s like I’m in the space between places. I’m not sure this will make sense to anyone. It is the only way I know how to describe where I am right now. I’m choosing to accept where I am. I’m not trying to fix it or change it. I have a lot of unknowns in my life right now and the usual me would be trying to figure it all out. Instead…I am almost relaxing in the hallway. I’m just sort of hanging out without judgment. I’m still curious about what is to come next but not putting pressure on it to reveal itself to me.
I’ve been wound up tight lately. What I know is that the tighter I’m wound the less chance the answers can flow in and reveal themselves to me. I know the key is to be in a state of non-resistance. So here I am in the hallway. In the space between places. Just hanging out.
And now…it is time to drift off to sleep and allow GUS to take care of everything.
Sweet dreams,
Suzi